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I am not disappointed in you...

Christine Cahoon   Fri 10 Mar 2023   updated: Fri 11 Aug 2023

I am not disappointed in you
I never have been, and I never will be
I'm not embarrassed or confused
Thinking you'd better improve yourself
Or else... I'm done with you.

No I'm not disappointed in you
I'm not ashamed of you
Thinking what a let down
I'm not frustrated or accusing
Bitter or abusive
l am love, and I love you.

And I'm not bored with you
I'm celebrating you
I have set you on a Rock
A chip off the old block
At home in this, beautiful place.
Never doubting you
I've no need to shout at you
Hey I think you're amazing
Though sometimes a little crazy
How I love to dance with you.

I'm not bored with you
I'm celebrating you
I have set you on a Rock, a chip off the old block
At home in this, beautiful place.
Never doubting you
I've no need to shout at you
Hey I think you're amazing
You're sometimes a little crazy,
How love to laugh with you.
I am not disillusioned with you
I never had any illusions in the first place
I know exactly who you are
I've known you from the start
Yes I am love, and I love you.

Godfrey Birtill, Whitfield Music UK 2015

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Christine Cahoon   Fri 11 Aug 2023

God has a face and he looks like Jesus... and always has. Loves us all, warts and all :-)

Bike ride, April 2001

Christine Cahoon   Sun 05 Feb 2023

Start of the journey and things are easy
Passing through meadows and glens hazy
Hands gripped round bars, feet pushing hard
Knees like pistons, really powered
Wind through your hair and doing great
But when you fall off, it could make you late
Life can be great but sometimes rough
Although right now I’m doing enough.

John O’Donohue…

Christine Cahoon   Wed 04 Jan 2023   updated: Tue 29 Jul 2025

Poet John O’Donohue tells me, ‘The heart of human identity is the capacity and desire for birthing. To be human is to become creative and bring forth the beautiful.’

Divine Beauty: The Invisible Embrace (New York: HarperCollins, 2004), p. 142.

‘All that is eternal in me
Welcomes the wonder of this day,
The field of brightness it creates
Offering time for each thing
To arise and illuminate…
May my mind come alive today
To the invisible geography
That invites me to new frontiers,
To break the dead shell of yesterdays,
To risk being disturbed and changed.

May I have the courage today
To live the life that I would love,
To postpone my dream no longer,
But do at last what I came here for
And waste my heart on fear no more.

‘A Morning Offering’, Benedictus (Transworld Digital, Kindle Edition, 2009), Kindle Locations 344-363.

Something apt...

Christine Cahoon   Sun 21 Aug 2022   updated: Thu 09 Feb 2023

Why won't you talk to me
I've done nothing wrong that I can see.
You know I can't take this silence, tell me what's wrong with you
If I'm supposed to feel guilty, tell me what did I do

It must be a reason for you acting this way
But I swear I won't know it 'til you come out and say.
Why won't you talk to me
I've done nothing wrong that I can see.

I don't know why I'm trying to break down this wall
That you build up between us or nothing at all
It feels like a bad dream, it feels like a game
But I swear this is one time that I'm not to blame.

Why won't you talk to me
I've done nothing wrong that I can see.

Thanks to Gerry Rafferty
Why Won't You Talk To Me

Our patch...

Christine Cahoon   Mon 14 Mar 2022   updated: Tue 05 May 2026

Tá mé i mo chónaí i mBéal Feirste
I live in Belfast
A charming wee city steeped in a Troubled history.

Belfast, where the street signs are written in English or Irish.
To visitors it might go unnoticed but for me it’s another sign of “us and them”.

The “great” divide of “us and them”.
Protestant or Catholic
Loyalist or Nationalist
British or Irish
DUP or Sinn Féin
The tribal voting when will it Bloody stop.

The Good Friday Agreement may have ended The Troubles.
Violence no more, except the lingering possibility on those days.
Twelfth of July or Paddy’s Day,
some may add “Happy” in a different way.

To the world it’s described as a low-level-war
but for some it was a 30-year war.
It’s meant to be over now
but it’s apparent everywhere
and it isn’t going anywhere.

They say, “things have changed”
and sure, the big iron gates to enter the city are long gone
but two decades later there’s still more than 100 barriers.
The Peace walls built to keep the two communities apart.
They speak of integration, progress towards inclusion
but the excessive flegs in all four quarters of Belfast say it all.

I offer an interesting perspective perhaps for I fell in love with one from the other side.
I switch with great ease between my different families.
“I’m British”
“I’m Irish”
but who am I really?

I was brought up Protestant
but I’m not proud to say I’m British.
I’m not a Catholic
but I’m proud to say I’m Irish.
I dread the conversation of “us and them”
for I blend with great ease
but who am I really?

A charming wee city steeped in a Troubled history.
A difficult city to navigate
yet I can’t help but love it
for this is my wee city!

We love a good slanging,
and the craic is dead on.
I’m squandered by our “leaders”.
To both parties I say,
catch yourself on and wind yer neck in.

We have our differences, but we are a friendly bunch.
As strangers we will join in in your conversation whether you like it or not.
You should beware of our wildly offensive, take-no-prisoners sense of humour.
You’re a melter
She’s boggin’
He’s a buck eejit
You’re a milly
You can’t take it personally,
it’s just our ruthless humour
and ya just gotta love that Norn Iron accent.

Belfast, with its seven quarters it makes no sense.
An obvious attempt to move away from the four divided sectarian quarters:
East, West, North or South.

Cathedral Quarter enriched in our drinking culture where everyone gets steamin’.
Gaeltacht Quarter where the Irish language is most spoken.
Queens Quarter named after Queen’s University.
Linen Quarter labelled after the old linen trade and warehouses famous now for its cultural venues.
Titanic Quarter includes the skyline of the Samson and Goliath cranes and the dock of the brave but fallen Titanic.
Market Quarter where only one of fourteen markets remain:
St George's Market as popular as ever with weekly live music despite the lingering smell of freshly caught fish.
Library Quarter known by the local LGBT+ folks as the Gay Quarter but famous for its newspapers.
The Belfast Telegraph or Irish Times
Inclusive division, it’s everywhere.

Come visit for a poke or an Ulster Fry.
You’ll surely get a friendly Bout ye’ as you saunter by.

A reflection from a 32 year old who was 8 when the Troubles ended.

A daughter’s poem on her mother’s 60th birthday...

Christine Cahoon   Fri 24 Dec 2021   updated: Tue 05 May 2026

It’s hard to pick a moment to write about when I’ve had a lifetime of memories with you. Here goes...

From the moment I was born
you gave me safety,
and I gave you giggles with my silly jokes,
“I know how to spell “OK”… “OK””
and silly number rhymes at aged five,
“3 and 3, 33”.
When I found reading and spelling hard
you had patience with me
explaining things to me like it was A, B, Z
I mean C.

You’re the reason for my interest
in exploring a career researching
children’s first educator.
You believed in my crazy ideas,
“I want to do a PhD”.
Supported me when you had no clue
what I was talking about
and all you heard was,
“analysis, blah, blah, blah…”.
Most of all you encouraged and inspired me
to achieve, and now there’s a book
dedicated to you in Ulster library,
“… Thank you for believing in me”.

You’re a determined, relentless, overachiever.
A multiple business owner.
Who grasps opportunities with both hands,
traveling to Abu Dhabi at age fifty-six.
A business woman with heart and passion
that inspired employees to succeed.
I love your drive and ambition,
it’s certainly rubbed off on all,
including me.

A breast cancer survivor,
A bold, courageous, daredevil.
You’re the bravest woman I know.
You continue to be brave (nearly) everyday
with your cold water swims,
that most wouldn’t want touching their toes.

Driving around ‘sunny’ Ireland,
we’ve been blown away like Piglet on Achill island,
caught fish goodness knows where,
and had vegetable soup nearly everywhere.
I’m looking forward to treating you for your 60th,
to the ultimate Irish road trip,
full of adventure!

We’ve giggled and laughed,
played games our whole life.

From head to toe you’re royalty to me,
after all you were birthed by the queen,
on Christmas Eve.

Now 60 years on you’re one hell of a woman!
A true oak!
Thank you mum for everything!
I love you!

Celebrating October...

Christine Cahoon   Fri 22 Oct 2021   updated: Wed 10 Jun 2026

It's a special time, October.
The autumn colours emerge from red,
golden to brown as leaves curl and die,
but it all appears magical.
Of course...
my daughter was born in October.

The Weaver

Christine Cahoon   Mon 27 Sep 2021   updated: Thu 30 Sep 2021

Bookmark found in amongst the weaving stuff

My life is but a weaving
Between my Lord and me.
I cannot choose the colors
He worked steadily.

Oftimes he weaveth sorrow
And I in foolish pride
Forget He sees the upper
And I, the underside.

Not until the loom is silent
And the shuttles cease to fly
Shall God unroll the canvas
And explain the reason why.

The dark threads are as needful
In the Weaver’s skillful hand
As the threads of gold and silver
In the pattern He has planned.

Silence

Christine Cahoon   Fri 13 Nov 2020

It’s amazing here... not many places that everything is so still

I hear a leaf fall from a tree as autumn closes in
I hear the sound of sheep pulling and munching on grass
I hear the sound of a bird looking for worms on the forest floor
I hear the sound of the wind going through heron’s wings
I hear a bee humming as flies pass
I hear a goose honking overhead
In the distance, I hear the sound of the waves crashing on the shore.

Don’t quit

Christine Cahoon   Thu 08 Mar 2018

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is strange with its twists and turns
As every one of us sometimes learns
And many a failure comes about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow—
You may succeed with another blow.

Success is failure turned inside out—
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell just how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit—
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

by John Greenleaf Whittier

Draw a line in the sand!

Christine Cahoon   Mon 18 Dec 2017   updated: Wed 20 Dec 2017

He has everything yet he has nothing,
You give him an inch and he takes a mile,
It's always someone else's fault,
He's never happy,
In everything there's a problem,
He doesn't respect people's time and work,
He accuses rather than trying to bless,
His time is more precious than yours,
He calls "wolf" too often,
Too many false alarms.

Maybe there's one in every family,
There's definitely one in mine,
I've had enough,
It's time to regain my sanity,
Time to draw a line in the sand.

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Christine Cahoon   Fri 13 Nov 2020   updated: Tue 05 May 2026

Of course, I never really drew that line in the sand. How could I. It's not in my nature.

A blessing for one who is exhausted...

Christine Cahoon   Wed 17 May 2017   updated: Tue 14 Nov 2017

Having heard about the death of a good friend and feeling worn out by life's struggles, I heard this poem for the first time and seemed appropriate... A Blessing for One Who is Exhausted by John O'Donohue.

The end seems especially helpful to...

Stay clear of those vexed in spirit.
Learn to linger around someone of ease
Who feels they have all the time in the world.

Gradually, you will return to yourself,
Having learned a new respect for your heart
And the joy that dwells far within slow time.

My good friend always seemed to have time, along with his wife, they helped so many.

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For the perfection in me, reminders...

Christine Cahoon   Mon 30 Jan 2017   updated: Mon 01 Jan 2018

Ignore the questions, just do it.

Ignore nagging self-doubt, just get to work.

Think like a child, keep it simple.

Stop over thinking, let it go.

Just get something down... anything.

Set fake deadlines... get through that list regardless.

Learn to say it's good enough.

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Christine Cahoon   Thu 02 Nov 2017

And if you manage to do all that, tell me how you did it!

Faith...

Christine Cahoon   Sat 23 Jan 2010   updated: Fri 10 Nov 2017

As Carol Wimmer puts it: When I say I'm a Christian...

When I say that ‘I am a Christian’, I am not shouting that ‘I am clean living. I’m whispering ‘I was lost, but now I’m found and forgiven.’

When I say ‘I am a Christian’ I don’t speak of this with pride. I’m confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say ‘I am a Christian’ I’m not trying to be strong. I’m professing that I’m weak and need His strength to carry on.

When I say ‘I am a Christian’ I’m not bragging of success. I’m admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.

When I say ‘I am a Christian’ I’m not claiming to be perfect. My flaws are far too visible, but God believes I am worth it.

When I say ‘I am a Christian’ I still feel the sting of pain. I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon His name.

When I say ‘I am a Christian’ I’m not holier than thou, I’m just a simple sinner who received God’s good grace, somehow!